I HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM AND THAT’S OK.
Do you over criticize yourself? Well, i’m no doctor but you might just be diagnosed with low self esteem.
I can already hear the “uh uh!” , the “not me!” or “NEVERR.” For whatever reason, the thought of having low self esteem or better yet saying that you do out loud, especially to others is SOCIAL SUICIDE. I mean are you not embarrassed? Are you not disgusted with yourself? Do you not….
Well, guess what? The first step to fixing a problem is admitting that there is one. And we all can acknowledge that admitting to having low self esteem is considered a huge no-no in society! Everybody wants to be the bad b***h, the it girl, even the men wants to be “him”. Pretending that low self esteem doesn’t exist though, doesn’t change the fact that you may suffer from it, nor is it going to make it disappear.
I remember dealing with this toxic friendship for too long…like too damn long. As I would tell people the stories about how I endured emotional abuse…allowing this person to mistreat me, I would just watch their faces change into many expressions; shock, anger. The biggest expression though? was confusion. The more I told my stories out loud, the more I realized how foolish I actually sounded... And then one time I was straight up asked by my friend …why? Why was that your friend? Why did you stay in that friendship?
“Why?” That was a good question. Of all the excuses I could of come up with, I could only muster up the truth of what it really was. “Because I had low self esteem.” I mean yikes..sad to admit but it was true. That was the only real reason. I allowed myself to be treated this way by someone who obviously hated me because I had low self esteem. Why else do we allow ourselves to feel bad at the hands of someone else? If we felt worthy of better or if we knew better, we would do better. It doesn’t sound too good to acknowledge, does it? Yet, the moment I decided to be honest to myself and to those around me, I was freeing myself of what was considered acceptable and most importantly I was now ready to work on fixing this broken part of me.
How do I know if I have low self esteem?
I accept hot and cold behavior. Breadcrumbs
I make excuses for bad treatment from others.
Giving people the benefit of the doubt multiple times is an absolute no no. Assuming that we are all adults, people tend to know what they are doing. It’s even worse when you’ve expressed your concerns before and they still keep doing it. At that point there should be no more excuses being made for them…it’s time to get them scissors and “snip” “snip”. Cut them ties!
I people please.
I set NO boundaries
and if I do…I allow people to step past them every time.